Wednesday, June 04, 2008

The Stuff That Dreams Are Made Of.


I wanted someone to tell me a story.
A happy story.
A nice story.
Like a movie at the end of which you smile.

Across the street lived the Man Who Told Stories You Could Live.
No.
He wasn't God.
He could untangle the threads of time and space and take you to a new dimension.
Where you could be the story.
Or in the story.
Whichever one you wanted it to be.
You knew it was just his imagination.
But it was real.
Almost.


We all went to him every now and then.
To live fantasy and fiction.
To live a different life.
To be someone else living someone else's life.

Seven year olds went to him,wanting to hear stories of the days when Santa Claus was real.
Jill only wanted to be Alice.

A little boy wanted to be a pirate.
So he asked him to tell the story of a pirate.
Of treaures and swords and maps and ships.
Of battles and Captain Hooks.
Every waking moment seemed like the end of the world.
And that,is not catastrophic.
It's beautiful.
The little boy was the hero.
We all want to be heroes.

Mrs.Bidge lived at the end of the street.
To state the obvious,Mr.Bidge was dead.
And to state the obvious more so,Mr.and Mrs.Bidge had no children.
And more,she had a cat.
Named Ginger.
She knitted the entire day because she had read about old women doing the same in cheap second-hand novels.
We all have.
Not that it made her think it was the thing to do but doing something else seemed unholy.
Almost like sin.
As if there were snooty old women in her head who like perfect English ladies of the eighteenth and nineteenth century would look down upon her if she did so.
It fitted the picture.
Who the knitted sweater was for, is unknown.
Even to Mrs.Bidge.

Mrs.Bidge secretly wanted to be Scarlett.
O'Hara..?
"Now that was sin,"said the woman in her head.
She was unable to hide her desire to go to the Man Who Told Stories You Could Live.
It is sad she had nobody to hide it from.
But then she had her own reality.
We all do.

She did go to him one day though.
Like we all wish we could?

So did I.
I wanted someone to tell me a story.

Jack was an atheist.
He wanted to be God.
It was fun.
He became more of an atheist after that.
He knew he could be God.

All stories do come to an end.
Like the universe.
Because the universe too is a story.
So we went back to him over and over again.
It's sad when stories come to an end though.
When you cannot feel the magic anymore.
And you wish you could return to being in the middle of the book.

He made chairs.
The Man Who Told Stories..?
His house was gloomy,the wooden planks damp.
There was a small patch of grass outside the front door.
Though the patch didn't qualify for a patch and neither did the front door.
You could smell rain when you walked in.
Always.
We lived in such a part of he world.
The skies were always dark.
As if something was about to happen and you were standing at the edge of it.

We never knocked.
The door was a bunch of unshapely planks.
You only had to push and free one of them that was tall enough to satisfy the intended height of the door.

He was working.
He always was.
Chisled wood and ribbons strewn on the floor.
Saw dust hung in the air.

I wanted him to tell me a story.
A happy story.
A nice story.
Like the movie at the end of which you smile.
I wanted him to tell me a story i could live.

He did.

He sang me a song.







It's addictive.

12 comments:

sunrise said...

Even you're schizophrenic. Damn. I have a lot of neurotic friends- I just realized that. I like this. It's weird. It's senseless. It's stupid and not stupid at the same time.

Anyway. You write much better than you did before. Remember the "just a fantasy" days? Some of the stuff you wrote was just positively kooky.
And your bad spelling totally beat my bad spelling.

Mind Mapping said...

i had really bad handwriting which has only improved over the years.
i was always made the dumb character.
falling,puking or doing something utterly slapstick.
you'll always made me do that.
so i stuck to the stupidity.
we were all a bunch of stupid kids.
who wrote very stupid things.
its embarassing to read them again.

sunrise said...

You made yourself do that too. You love screaming at people and yelling like the world was coming to an end.
We were not stupid kids and it was not a stupid thing. You're just embarrassed because you were the one who had the worst style of writing.
Nah I'm kidding
It was cute though, that just a fantasy thing.

Mind Mapping said...

when was the last time you went through the earliest parts of the roleplay?
you get embarassed in front of yourself when you read your old writings.
i'll show you my green diary one day.
its hilarious.

oh.
i once played a kid named Fredrick Deardre Trumpet.
Rajasee is just evil.
i mean how could she name a kid that even in fiction.

Unknown said...

I don't remember this Trumpet character and what is the green diary? I want to read the green diary too!!! Get it next week when we all meet up, okay ?
My exams are getting over on Thursday! Weeeheeeeee

Rajasee Ray said...

you see i grew up before a lot of people did and then i manipulated them... :)
frederick dierdre trumpet. heh. i'm still proud of that name.

Jill wanted to be Alice. through a looking glass instead of tumbling after. i can see why.

mrs. binge IS eleanor rigby.

and the old man who tells story lives inside our heads, doesn't he, apurva?
and we return to him when we're alone and absolutely sure there isn't a mind reader anywhere around so that we can tell ourselves stories.

sigh.

it's not really sin, is it??

you still have your green diary? i thought we gave everything to jahnavi on her fifteenth birthday and it's all lost. like the vampire roleplay. which was going somewhere. sinning all the way.

this is beautiful. it's us.

i want to be a tragic hero who doesn't die in the end.

i will be.

let us make a new blog which we shall update from time to time about what we're really doing. all over the country and the world.
"not just a fantasy"...

sunrise said...

RJ, count me in.
This time I'm pretty sure I wont be skateboarding around fashion shows and smoking cigars.
Cigars!!!!

I can't get over that. I was such a stupid kid.

googly said...

bad handwriting which improved over the years, eh?

the [R]etard said...

hello... havent read this... but i'm back. so i will. eventually. call me. lost your number =/

Aquilus~ said...

Hey.
I think Ive read this like 4 times. I still dont get it all. I know I like it. But it defies analysis, y'know?
:)

Teller of Tales said...

Either the man is God or a drug peddlar... :p
But seriously.. wonderful!!
"We all want to be heroes"
so true...

-Pragya

Xiamaze said...

firstly commenting on the post,

"You knew it was just his imagination.
But it was real.
Almost."

contradiction.
hehe.
but still makes sense cause thats the way we talk in our heads.
the thing about your writing is that you write exactly the way its in your head so..creates a rather interesting style.


now commenting on the comments..
apurva i agree with jahnavi, you used to write stupid things,jahnavi on the other hand wrote quite well actually...
everyone's changed so much man.
everyone, everything.
bas.