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Someday, I will die and everyone i know will be sad.Some will cry and fewer will continue for a longer time.
Sooner or later,when things grow out of time,there will be something nice again and everyone will learn to live without me. The fact that i died will be accepted. No one shall feel so sad about it anymore and maybe some may feel a tinge on say my birthday.
They will talk about me,not so often,happily when a forgotten photograph comes out from a closet.
I know that's what i should want it to be like,that is, if all the hype about souls makes sense.But sometimes i feel if i really mean this.Beacause I don't like being a passing thought in someone's mind.I like to stay there. I know people will say that even though i don't feature in their everyday lives,i'm always there with them.It sounds like a beaten line-a bit fake.
I don't know if i'll be satisfied.I'm a selfish girl.
Its better that we all die once and for all and souls don't exist.It sounds like too much of a torture.Neither heaven nor hell are inviting.